19.4.13

Chapter 20, A fateful decision


~Miranda~
It was morning and the sun shone through the windows right at Ber, who sat in the corner of the kitchen, feeding her grandmother.
”I should go, ’cause I can control emotions, which is really good, since we don’t wanna fight anyone!”
“Well, I can transform into different people and sneak into places no one else of us can!”
“Hey. I can change anything into weapons.”
Miranda sighed. Everyone wanted to go and everyone had good reasons why. She had some reasons to why she should go herself, actually. Not everyone could go, though, so now they had to decide. Great. At least three people would probably be angry after this.
Hannah was a good choice since she could change things’ shape, so she could make, for example, keys. So why would she stay? Miranda didn’t know. Arabella, could make trouble into peace without fighting and she would probably go around and sulk if she remained here. Natalie, could easily escape to some roof if necessary or just runaway. Maybe even punch through walls. Eleanor had to go, that transforming ability of hers would be useful. Charlotte would be able to see where to go if they got lost. Wilma could make weapons of anything, but they didn’t want to fight, so that wouldn’t be necessary. Miranda herself, then? She could heal, so she was be an obvious choice, but maybe it was best for her to stay here with Ber?
 She finally decided that Arabella, Natalie, Hannah and Eleanor would be the best choice.
Arabella because she had the biggest opportunity to make peace, and she had to admit the two of them would probably bark at each other if they were together. Natalie because could escape if necessary. Hannah and Eleanor because they would be able to access places the others probably couldn’t.
That left herself, Charlotte and Wilma. If there were no fights, why would there be a healer? If they didn’t want to start fights, why would they need someone who could make weapons? Charlotte would be needed here, so they wouldn’t get lost in the forest if they wanted to go there, which they probably would.
She wondered how the others would feel about her suggestion. Actually she knew. It wouldn’t be pretty. She began to feel nauseous.
When she finally opened her mouth and interrupted the girls, she actually expected protests, especially from one of them, but she didn’t get any. Except an angry look from Wilma and a frightened look from Natalie. Or surprised, she couldn’t tell. Did they really have that much respect for her? Or at least for her decisions, but that’s the same, isn’t it?

“There’s a farm just outside of the city, they should have long robe-like hoods in their barn, since they ‘re like us.” Ber said before the girls were going to go, “But if you’re seen…”
“We know, we know.” Arabella said, “We’re not that stupid. Have some faith in us.”
She smiled like a fool; Miranda saw Hannah’s mouth twitching. She wondered what they would see.
As the leader she should say something, but as she saw their backs disappearing into the forest she shouted out the first thing that came to mind.
“Be sure to come back! If…If you don’t we’ll leave you here!”
‘We’ll leave you here’? What…?
The girls just turned around and waved. Some more confidently than others.
It’s all fun and games at first.
That she knew from experience.  

Miranda, Charlotte and Wilma decided after some time that they could go and look at the signs. The walk there felt awkward, the only things they said to each other were some short awkward conversations and Charlotte didn’t say anything at all.
“So-um…What are you studying next year?” It’s always the easiest to talk about school.
“Economics.” Wilma answered, “Just like my mum.”
“Humanities.” Charlotte said.
“Is that the program with all the languages…?” Miranda asked.
“Among other things.”
“How about you?” Wilma asked.
“The Social Studies Program.”
“Oh, the SoS?”
“Yeah.”
And so the conversation ended.

The yellow grass was really there, all the way down to the river and its little shore. The normal green grass didn’t fade out into the yellow; it just stopped as if it was an invisible wall. At some places it was brown. On the river shore were some fish, in the water itself you could see some laying in that disgusting way with their bellies up. One of them had even gotten its stomach half eaten. Even the sand looked weird, a strange greyish color. And the smell! It smelled just like…she actually couldn’t think of something that smelled that bad; even her father’s painting room smelled better than this and it had been the fear of her childhood. She put her hand to her nose, but it didn’t help. Wilma and Charlotte had put their waist cloth over their noses, so Miranda decided to do the same. Why hadn’t she thought of such a simple solution?
Apart from the fait wind rustling the leaves and the water in the river there were no sounds. Actually, the trees that stood on the yellow grass didn’t have any leaves for the wind to touch. Some trees had branches covered in leaves over the normal grass, but the branches over the brown and yellow grass didn’t have a single one, even if one part of the branch was over the green grass.
As she looked around she couldn’t help but think what they were going to do here, anyway? What could they do to stop these things except defeating that wizard or magician or whatever?
“Hey, let’s go to the city, too.” She said. Charlotte stopped from her way to the river and looked wondering back at her.
“Why?” Wilma asked, “Hadn’t we decided they, and only they, were goin’? We said we were goin’ to look at the signs…”
“And then what are we going to do? Or actually, now what are we going to do?”
“Well…um…I don’t know, but I think we should stick with what we decided. Don’t you think so too, Charlotte?”
Charlotte didn’t answer. The girl just looked like she was surprised anyone said anything to her.
“I’m going.” Miranda said.
She turned around and left.
“But you’re the leader! You can’t just go.” Wilma’s voice sounded so surprised, so hopeless.
Miranda was done taking orders from people; she was going to what she thought was right, no matter what others said. Even if it meant walking alone.
“Wha-wait! You’re not really goin’ are you?”
She imagined them standing behind her looking all bewildered and powerless. Like she had done long ago. The emotions and memories of the past came over her and she actually considered going back to Wilma and Charlotte, saying it was a joke and of course they would try to stop it from here. Then they could become friends and talk and have fun. She smiled for herself.
She came home angry and crying, slamming every damn door as hard as she could. When she got to her bedroom she didn’t even make it to the bed before she broke down in hard sobs. The little pink book lay on her desk, laughing and mocking. Before she really knew what she was doing one of the telephone numbers and its name were buried beneath layers of ink. The friendship bracelet they had made together lay in pieces on the floor. She breathed heavily and then heard a child cry its life out. How disgusted she became when she noticed it was her.
Disgusting. She was not going back. She was going to do what she thought was right, no matter what others said. Even though it meant walking alone.
“Hey!” Wilma called out.
Miranda heard footsteps behind her, but didn’t need to turn around to know who it, they, belonged to.
“Only because you’re the leader.” It was hardly a mutter.

When they got back to Ber’s house she wondered what they thought. Was it really that bad?
“I don’t know what ‘that bad’ is exactly, but I would say it’s pretty bad, yes.” Miranda said.
“Do you know why everything seemed to come from the river?” She was surprised Charlotte had opened her mouth, she who almost never talked in sentences longer than five words.
“The river? No, I didn’t even know that.”
Of course Miranda hadn’t noticed it.
“We will follow the others into the city.” Miranda notified Ber, “We don’t know what we can do here, anyway.”
The girl didn’t look very surprised and her eyes lit up.
“You’ll need clothes.” She said instead of asking why, “I don’t think there are any more long hoods around here, but we should have some ordinary clothes. Just be sure you’re covering your hair and at least a little of your faces.”
“Why?” Mirada asked.
“You’ll get questions up to your ears if they see you’re foreigners and they’ll probably realize what kind of foreigners you are.”
“Should we really leave our clothes here?” Wilma asked.
“We can bury them in the garden and then come and get them before we go home.” Miranda answered.
Wilma did not look convinced. Miranda wasn’t very keen on it, either. Would they get new clothes if they forgot these? Maybe they would be placed in a museum here.

Charlotte got some of Ber’s clothes, since she was the thinnest of the three, though she had to have a thinner shirt under, so the sleeves didn’t look like they were as short as they actually were; and she had to have the skirt far down on her hips so her legs wouldn’t show. Miranda and Wilma had to borrow her grandmother’s clothes. She would have preferred Ber’s clothes, the grandmother’s clothes were loose and were probably counted as old fashionded, since the models were kind off different. Charlotte’s orange clothes with leaves patterns overlapped on the left side of the chest and were attached at her waist with two black needle like looking…things. This made her neckline rounded. The clothes sat tight on her, too tight for her to be comfortable it seemed, because she pulled at them all the time.
Miranda and Wilma clothes didn’t sit as tight; they were actually loose, especially on Miranda since Wilma was taller and the grandmother seemed to be quite tall. Their clothes met and overlapped in the middle of the chest and were fastened with a large, thick and patterned belt of fabric that ended at their waists. The skirt dragged on the floor. How fun it would be to walk in the forest.
Miranda’s was dark blue and Wilma’s red. They were pattern less.
“How do I look?” Wilma asked.
“Amazing.” Miranda answered.
Even though the clothes could have looked better on them it was amazing to wear them.
Ber and her grandfather placed their clothes in a barrel they had their rice in and dug a hole in the backyard while they changed.
When they came back Ber was holding two long green pieces of fabric in one hand and a shorter yellow one in the other. The shorter was obviously for Charlotte’s model because it did not look good with Miranda’s clothes. Wilma got the shorter one that only was long enough to cover the shoulders, because her hair was shorter. They all had to put up their hair up in a low ponytail, though. 
“I bet I look like an old lady now.” Wilma muttered.
Ber threw something at Miranda, who caught it in the air. It was a pouch that clinked. She opened it and saw coins made out of what looked like copper. The color was the same, at least.
“We can’t accept this.”
“You need food, don’t you?” She answered. “And I forgot to give this to the other girls, so  yeah…”
Miranda just looked at the gift. She knew they were poor and they had even moved their precious rice for the sake of their clothes.
Ber must have seen her doubt because she said:
“Just take it.”
With a tone you didn’t say no to.

They, Miranda, had decided to go into the city from a different way.  She had thought it would be safer, just in case if the others had done something they shouldn’t have been doing.
Miranda had convinced, forced, the other two to enter through the main road into the city. So now they were walking down the road, a very empty road. They were actually the only people on it. Maybe it was lunch time? As if…
There were soldiers right before the entrance to the city and they were looking at them, Miranda, Wilma and Charlotte. They had spears with three spikes. Like a cross. She knew it was a big risk, but she thought they would be able to trick them. In these clothes they didn’t look like themselves. Even Ber had said they looked good.
The plan was to go into the city and then Charlotte would use her powers to look around the city, as far as she could, and look after buildings that looked like prisons.
“I think we should go back.” Wilma whispered to her left, “This isn’t worth the risk, and we all agreed back then what we would do. You can’t just change your mind like this. It was even your suggestion!”
Miranda took a deep breath and breathed out and she clenched her fists. It was because it was her decision she did this. Besides, they couldn’t do much back there, anyway. She had a feeling the city was where they were needed.
The soldiers got closer. They weren’t even 20 meters away now.
“I think we should turn around.” Charlotte whispered on her other side.
“Why?”
How could they be so against it? It was a good idea!
“Maybe they know we’re here.”
“And how would they do that?” She stumbled on her skirt.
“The others could have been captured or seen.”
“Of course they were seen.”
Charlotte sighed.
“You know what I mean.”
“They haven’t been that kind of seen.”
“They have a wizard and a powerful wizard probably has all the possibilities in the world to know we are here.”
She had not thought of that.
“I say we go back.” Wilma whispered.
“They’ll just follow us, it’s better if we just walk past them.”
“Be realistic, we’re the only ones on the road, how can they not stop us, ask questions or whatever? How stupid do you think they are? We won’t be able to fool them!”
“Don’t risk our lives for something like this!” Charlotte said.
“We can look for another way.” Wilma suggested.
“We’ll go.”
“Then you’ll have to go yourself.”
“Wilma, come o…”
“Charlotte?”
“It’s a stupid idea.”
They both began to turn when Miranda saw the soldiers running towards them. She turned around and pushed the girls’ backs.
“Run, run, run, run, run, run!”
She ran past them. They looked back. Then they ran after her.
She ran into the forest holding most of her skirt in one of her hands. Her feet’s thumps melted with the sound of the heart beating like it was going to burst. The room in Rurica hit her, she stumbled on a root, her thighs were filled with pain, her lungs felt as if they were going to burst. Were the girls still behind her? She heard someone scream, then someone cursed, she turned her head and nothing.
There was no one behind her. She slowed in and panted heavily. Then Charlotte came from nowhere. When she saw Miranda she stopped with a confused look at her face. She looked even more confused when she looked back.
But Wilma didn’t come.
“Where’s Wilma?” Miranda asked as her stomach to hurt.
“I don’t really know.” She stood wither hands on her knees.
Did they catch her? What a stupid, idiotic, crazy, irresponsible, unplanned idea it had been. How could she have been so stupid to just run into it like this? And not to mention, dragging the other two into it, against their wills? What a leader…
“I thought you were coming later, to be honest.” A black haired man with brown skin came out from a door. From a house. Behind her. That hadn’t been there before.
“I thought you were more than two, though.” He continued, “Ah, there’s the last one.”
Wilma appeared. She didn’t have her head cloth. Miranda didn’t have hers, either, she noticed. It must’ve fallen of when she ran.
The man gestured with his arm into the door.
“Come on in.”

12.4.13

Sorry! (again...)

I'm sorry that I, yet again, haven't uploaded a new chapter. I've had alot to do and have felt stressed, but I am, really, working on the chapter now and it will be out before the end of next week. I'm aiming at Thursday/Friday, hopefully sooner